Josephine's Journey

Finally owning Who I Am....

I still recall vividly how I felt today I stared down the half-empty bottle of Johnny Walker whiskey and a vial of prescription anti-depressants, seriously considering ending it all. I was a few months over 21 and had had enough of life.

The grief I had felt since my mother's death three years previous was finally ready to be expressed through deep, heaving sobs, emptying my vessel only to be filled with loneliness. All I wanted was for one of my housemates sitting downstairs to come and see if I was OK, for someone to help ease the pain and hear me.

My fiancé called me from Germany on the landline downstairs. He must have felt I needed to hear a voice. In the days before mobile phones, and with him being in the British Army based over there, I couldn't reach out to him. That call saved me. I had got engaged after four meetings with him when he proposed earlier that year, thinking he could be my saviour from the deep pain I could not face. I came to my senses a few months later and walked away. He got killed on his motorbike when he was 23.

Not only had my mother died just after I turned 18, but in the following six weeks, I severed the relationship with my father (he told me I didn't deserve to eat….), though did fight him in the High Courts for 11 years, my younger brother had moved out, and I rang a friend to ask if I could stay before starting university at the beginning of October. Talk about being pushed into the deep end of adulthood, although I had been mothering my mother since I was 13. She did the polite thing and manifested liver cancer to end her life, it was more socially acceptable than suicide.

It was a weird time amongst strangers in the halls of residence at university, 40 miles from home, immersing in new studies and friendships to take my mind off the pain. I did not have the time to grieve, I was busy learning how to adult. At least I no longer comfort my mother, crying night after night or visiting her in hospital in the last few months. Nor did I have to feel scared about what mood my father would come in, whether he would lash out in physical or emotional violence because he had a bad day.

Working hard for avoidance seemed the way to go. Downtime and recreation were filled with newfound likes of alcohol, cigarettes, and occasional weed, taking comfort in the arms of a man whenever offered. I'm glad I had the stability of a long-term relationship, tho I tended to find a new one before finishing the last, being on my own was not an option back then.

I graduated in 1991 with my first degree, a 2:1 BSc Hons in Estate Management, but there were no jobs due to the property crash. I moved on to accounting, which bored me senseless until I switched over to management accounting. Forecasting and numbers were right up my alley. I spent 14 years in blue-chip corporations, working and playing hard. Not knowing how to face what was within other than to lash out in anger now and again, or to collapse in nervous exhaustion. It was an emotional rollercoaster for years.

When I turned 31, I moved to NZ with two suitcases, having sold my house and left my cat and corporate behind. I took six months off which was so liberating, though the best use of my time when playing solitaire and watching daytime TV until wine o’clock struck was questionable. I had moved in with an old flatmate from New Zealand who I had lived with in Birmingham and then again at my house in Kent before I had left England.

She led me straight into another disastrous relationship, followed by another. There was a definite pattern. By early 2003, it was finally time to find my own feet. 33 years on this planet and I couldn't pretend any longer. In a short period of six months, I quit smoking, found a lovely house and flatmate and got used to time on my own. I had an amazing trip back to the UK & New York, then did a three-day life-changing course, where I was introduced to the idea that thoughts become things, and we have the power to manifest our life. Law of Attraction 101.

It was a radical turning point and I headed straight into the self-development space as well as getting involved with an MLM. I was going to quit corporate within the year and have my own wellness business. I stuck to my word, left my job at the end of 2004, and ventured into the world of Internet marketing, with no income, just hope.

I spent 10 years flitting from this to that; distractions are the shadow of my life's work, with the dilemma of pleasure/pain. How I played into those beautifully over 40 years. I remember exactly the moment I heard I must integrate my spiritual work with my business; I knew a line in the sand had been drawn. By this time, I had been married seven years, had two young boys, and had moved to Sydney in my first trimester (I don't recommend starting again in a new country where you know no one as you're about to give birth). When the youngest was 18 months old, we moved to Adelaide.

I kept desperately busy through those early years of motherhood. Chronically sleep-deprived for five years, running my own business, and managing our four properties, with a husband who enjoyed his wine and life behind the iPad. I ran on pure exhaustion fumes, desperately trying to create my independence again. In the moments of breakdown, I had no one. Again. Just the responsibility for two little humans. My spiritual work, healing and mentor kept me going, at least I had her to talk to.

All through this time I continued growing through self-development work of New Age teachings, as well as business development and copywriting. I waited two years for the boys to be in kindergarten and school before I left my husband. I could no longer be with someone who couldn't see me, touch me or emotionally support me. There was more to life than being an unpaid housekeeper and mother. He is a good man, just too horizontal for my volatility, creativity and vision. He is still waiting for me to “get a proper job”.

Six weeks after I left him in October 2014, I started my first healing business, Your Universal Self. I had discovered the Akashic Records, Chaldean Numerology and parallel universes, and it lit me up like nothing before. I finally opened the door to abilities beyond this world. I dabbled in doing readings, online and down at the local wellness fair. I learnt all things Facebook & groups, though never once made a sale of anything from an advert…..

In 2017, my spiritual mentor went AWOL I called her out on her unwillingness to commit to exploring the downloads I was getting (on potential world problem solutions that will be shared with the Potent Disruptors who will use them). I could not listen to her false promises anymore and felt another round of Dark Night of the Soul kicking in.

What to do? Changed directions for the 17th time and developed a silk meditation wrap business called Prasamana that set me back $35k. I loved the creative process yet the minute the boxes arrived, I lost all interest in marketing them. I've always been good at starting things and moving on to the next before completion. If I have no energy for something, I cannot push it uphill. It's a very expensive way to live and by this point, I’d gone through $250k of savings spent on self-development, business training and providing a roof over my head. How exhausting is the endless seeking, hoping that the next thing will bring fulfilment and success, only to be left empty, frustrated and broke? How many times could I keep playing the same record?

By the beginning of 2019, I put it out there for a mentor who could help bring all of these creations, what I love and my abilities into one direction and uplevel. Two came along “randomly” 😉 and I was pushed into the deep end of commitment to who I am. One of them called me out on dabbling in the shallow end, that I was like Peter Pan playing with one thing and another, like a child, not stepping into what I was here to do. If I didn’t start taking life seriously and commit, I wouldn’t be here much longer. I knew she was telling the truth.

Josephine Sorciere was birthed in my 50^th year, my true self was finally ready to be heard and seen. I had found the tools and insight to claim my alchemy and magic, transmuting layer after layer of embedded drudge that had weighed me down for decades and lifetimes. I was doing this for myself, not relying on a healer to tell me what was wrong or ‘fix me’. Enough that I could finally get out of my own way, the stories and conditioning, to allow the space for my true Genius frequency to make itself known. My alter ego, Josephine, had been waiting for the moment of claiming self-realisation.

I hardly recognised who I had become, or more accurately, who lay beneath the weight of the karmic shackles and trauma. I finally had the willingness to look deeply within, in new ways I had never found before, and learn to transmute in the moment, the density I was facing. I was committed to doing the work, no matter what.

It took a very short while to create my branding and Sovereign stance (with the other mentor) before I started helping others on their journey through this new kind of transformation. One that was not linear, that worked beyond time and space, opening up their abilities beyond anything they could conceive. It was incredibly powerful for both of us and there is nothing more humbling than facilitating and witnessing someone else’s profound shift in their life.

Along the way, I wrote two volumes of a book called 2020: the Alchemist’s Awakening, exploring what was unfolding in the world in terms of higher consciousness, underlying the principles claiming your power, authenticity and true essence. I would no longer hide my abilities and wisdom and had received a clear direction to share this with the world. It is so freeing when you simply learn to follow the directives of your higher self rather than think your way through what you should say and do. The only sane place to live is out of your mind.

I felt I reached a pivotal moment, unapologetically expressing so many different aspects of wisdom and innate knowing. Owning the powerful insight of truth behind the illusions playing out and having no doubt or fear but I could lead others through their own profound journeys of transformation as I had been through mine. I finally owned my self-worth, having claimed back my power and was truly living from my signature frequency, which continues to evolve with is almost inconceivable insight.

I took a breather from three years of intense client work to explore the tools of Human Design by Ra Uru Hu and the Gene Keys by Richard Rudd. Whilst I had been explaining people's soul realms and connecting them for several years, I loved the accessibility of the Blueprints for people to see their design in this reality. However, we are not limited to one perspective that the reports indicate and I love nothing more than opening up all aspects, gates and channels for those in for the long haul. Some of my best clients are with me five years later, returning sporadically for the next plateau of their Signature Frequency.

The step out from the zone of my genius culminated in a trip back to the UK in May 2024 for 4 months. It was time for me to get back into fully living, not just squirrel away, as the Scribe & Mystic that I am, dedicated to the cause. I had to activate my Life’s Work of enrichment. When I heard the clear guidance, “Go to England and write a book”, that's what I did. I wove together the story of my travels and how it came about along with the principles of the Gene Keys and the transits of energy at play in my publication, “Wandering Enrichment - England through Fresh Eyes”.

Just like my other two books, they were not planned, I simply started writing and the format emerged as I went. I'm all for creating an innovative structure and bringing magic through that, without following “the correct way”. I'm committed to living with my life as art and inspiring others to do the same. That can only be achieved once you claim your Sovereignty and switch on your Signature Frequency, which was the definition that came to me in February 2025.

Upon my return six months previously, literally on the plane flight home, I had been given the download to create my Opus, the Ancient Future Awakening syllabus. This is the deepest and most expansive work I have brought forward, for those who have transversed several plateaux of frequency work with me first. I love how the work is never-ending, we are always a work in progress as consciousness evolves within us and humanity.

So now it's time to come full circle and find a new wave of visionaries that I can inspire, activate and lead back to the truth of who they are. Substack has resonated highly for me since discovering it a couple of months ago, what a brilliant way to share wisdom, insight and stories. I have loved my new connections, and the stirring of my heart to see so many people authentically express their journeys and discoveries. Perhaps I am justifying my new (healthy) obsession, though how refreshing to be genuinely opened rather than mindless scrolling past adverts and dross on other social media.

I'm humbled to have shared some of my story with you. For a glimpse of the landscape of my life, how hard the terrain has been, how often I wanted to give up and how frustrated it was with the endless seeking, the hope and dreams I put into so many ventures, only for them to “only for them to shift and evolve into something else time and time again.

It was only when I claimed the depth of my innate power, implicitly trusting my own divine Individuation and its expression, and moving beyond the limitation of time and space have I truly found freedom and self-realisation, knowing there is never a final destination. I want nothing more than for others to claim their fullest potential, unleash their untapped brilliance, activate their deepest fulfilment and end the suffocation of their fear. And for it not to take the decades that it took me. To help them end the eternal chase and seeking, finally coming home to who they are.

I work with the precision of a surgeon, upgrading your personal codes can only ever be in a 1:1 container, hence commanding a premium investment to fast-track your evolution. The only question is, do you feel you are worth it? Is it what you have always wanted and never found? Are you ready for expansion beyond your limited mind into your Universal Self? Your heart and soul can answer that question, and it starts with Initiation. For then you will KNOW.

With my best wishes, may you fare well on your journey. I offer my invite to be your Sherpa, ignite the mystery of your Signature Frequency and lead you through the inevitable journey of your Soul liberation. There is no time like the present.

Josephine Sorciere, The Evolutionist